2000 - 2004 was a period of great turmoil, marked by a tulmultous marriage that forced me to break through attachments and surmount total negation by the one I loved.
Living in the Mother Ashram's aura gave me opportunities to be with a powerful, supportive sangat, in the form of Yogi Bhajan's blessed bi-weekly evening classes, a daily group sadhana practice of prayer, yoga, meditation and morning Gurdwaras, blissful evening kirtans in people's homes, and sublime Sunday Gurdwaras, with unexpected awakenings.
Even so, I was forced through zeros unto tears, even while chanting God's Name, forgetting who I am. Forced to rebuild from nothing. Most of my written records from that period were emails between me and the Siri Singh Sahib Yogi Bhajan, and with a handful of family and friends. Those letters will come, with much editing yet to be done, with forgiveness to all who never knew me, and blessings for all unto God.
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