Swings of joy
and heartache expanded to another dimension with the marriage of a dear niece.
It was a joyful family reunion, taking place in a lovely church with Shakti
Parwha Kaur, the "Mother of 3HO", as the minister performing a sweet non-Sikh
version of the Karaj Anand. Many family members came together for the special
event, including my beautiful daughter, beloved by all.
Only I was
greatly saddened, for my daughter treated me disdainfully, blocked me off as
her mother, just as my husband distained me as his wife. I wondered, "Will my
Life Test never end?"
At the time,
Yogiji had told me to not worry about my family causing me to lose custody of
my daughter, that we have a huge Sikh family, which would help to bring her
back someday. So I wrote Yogiji asking for guidance through this renewed,
intimate challenge in my life. I felt that my daughter would be unable to
experience her spiritual roots, if pain and blame cut off me off as her mother.
From: Guruprem Kaur
Khalsa on 09/09/2000 08:45:10 AM
To: Yogi
Bhajan
Subject:
Challenge Anand
Dear Siri Singh Sahib ji,
Your words of Grace give me great strength and faith.
Thank you dearest father.
I love Rooh Singh beyond all karmas of past lives. Our
marriage is for our future, which is now.
If you would be so kind, please give me the direction to
take with my 23 year-old daughter. We spent time together with my family last
week following my niece's wedding. My daughter was blocked and disrespectful to
me, although entertaining and brilliant with everyone else. She is a stunning
young lady, carrying a newly awakened grudge that must be seven years old,
lifetimes old.
In meditation I left her at the Golden Temple, in Guru's hands. I trust she has been in Guru's care all along, going through her
self-imposed karmas and nooses, connected to the source of All Power. I do not
know how long she can abuse it to the extent she now enjoys. She is currently
excelling as a second year student of Veterinary Medicine. I have been sending
her letters acknowledging her soul, her courage and excellence. Now I am
wordless, even in prayer.
Your guidance is my bliss.
Loving Blessings,
Your daughter in Divine,
Guruprem Kaur Khalsa
Once again,
Yogiji guided me to help others by advising me to help myself. How could anyone
be a parent to their child, if they allowed their child's tantrums to make them
sad, too?
From:Yogi Bhajan
To: Guruprem Kaur
Sent: Thursday, September 20, 2000 10:38 AM
Subject: Re: Challenge Anand
Sat Nam. I have gratefully received your email. Just pray.
Do not let other people's weaknesses affect you. Build your strength through
the Guru's teachings, bani and meditation. Serve the sangat.
Humbly yours,
Yogi Bhajan
"Just pray."
That was the theme of my life! The power of prayer is my soul and my gift. It
was just hard to accept that we do not always get what we pray for. We receive
what best drives others and us to our highest destiny. The only failure is to
get angry with God for seeming not to hear, when we are the ones that are
unable to see the wider view.